As bad as it sounds to say, I feel like I didn't learn that much this week besides some things here and there about point of view which I hadn't learned before, probably since we've been writing our group essays pretty much all week. Also, I had an experience myself in which I had to look at something through someone else's, and vise versa. I know that's not really the kind of point of view we were talking about for our essay, but still. It counts.
Also, this week i got sent a contract to work at my summer camp for half of next summer. It's a job I've wanted my whole life, so I don't know why I'm suddenly getting cold feet, but I am. It sounds so exciting and great, but on the other hand it'll probably be the scariest, most independent thing I've ever done. I'm going to be challenged in my faith and my mental abilities, while also trying to keep someone else's 7-9 year olds alive for a week, which is absolutely terrifying. What if I'm not good enough? What if I'm the youngest counselor there and nobody tries to be friends with me? What if it's the loneliest five weeks of my life, when I could be at home spending time with my friends before college? On that note, what if my friends forget about me while I'm gone and we lose touch? So today, when I went to accept the contract I was sent, I didn't accept it. I didn't decline it either, so I think I'm just going to let it marinate for a while and pray about it too. I really want this job, but I think it's an opportunity cost thing. I don't really know what I want anymore and that scares me, but I really just hope I make the right choice in the end. On the bright side, though, I'd be making money- which would be nice because I've never had a job before and I'd have some spending money for college. That doesn't necessarily outweigh the things I'm scared of missing back home, like time with my sister and my friends before I leave them for four years, but that could all just be things that could hold me back from having the best five weeks of my life. This wasn't really about what I learned in class and I apologize for that, but it's something that's been on my mind and writing about it felt like the right way to get it out. I did learn stuff this week though, I promise. Click the button below to read an article about the job of a camp counselor, which I legitimately read in my free time yesterday while trying to decide if the job was right for me. Also pray for my grade because this is a very low quality and irrelevent blog post and I can already see my grade going down because of it. The end.
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